She said what?!
PDD or Pervasive Developmental Disorder. That’s the verdict…err… diagnosis by the developmental pediatrician. It flashed on my screen and then blurred out quickly enough for me to get it dissolved in a mix of emotions I have never felt before.
I had flown back to Bangkok when this diagnosis was sent to me via SMS. I was alone and thought of my past troubles. If I survived those, I knew I would get through this. But it was still a heavy thud on the head. Anyhow, I groped my heart and dragged it to Google.
On the short message window was just Pervasive Developmental Disorder. There was no Not Otherwise Specified. So PDD was what I typed to begin a search. My eyes scrolled down to the second paragraph of a NINDS content which read “there is no known cure for PDD… medications are used to…” My world stopped. I whimpered….
But hang on. Haven’t I been claiming that I never cry? This one is just a heartache that got caught in my eye. Alice Coooper, how the heck did you manage it? I’m falling into a pit. Well, Alice in Wonderland maintained her composure when she reached the bottom. I should maintain mine or it’s off with my head.
The National Institute of Neurological Disorders and Stroke has this on their info page for PDD:
What are Pervasive Developmental Disorders?
The diagnostic category of pervasive developmental disorders (PDD) refers to a group of disorders characterized by delays in the development of socialization and communication skills. Parents may note symptoms as early as infancy, although the typical age of onset is before 3 years of age.
Symptoms may include problems with using and understanding language; difficulty relating to people, objects, and events; unusual play with toys and other objects; difficulty with changes in routine or familiar surroundings, and repetitive body movements or behavior patterns.
Other types of PDD include Asperger’s Syndrome, Childhood Disintegrative Disorder, and Rett’s Syndrome. Children with PDD vary widely in abilities, intelligence, and behaviors. Some children do not speak at all, others speak in limited phrases or conversations, and some have relatively normal language development. Repetitive play skills and limited social skills are generally evident.
CJ does not have all these symptoms. The highlighted phrases are the ones I think CJ is experiencing, and the bit on varying in abilities is something I think I should remember as I continue the search and perk up my ears for what needs observing.